Only One More E-Mail Left! July 26, 2010

Dear Family,

Everything is becoming a blur for me. I was just thinking of the first time I emailed you from the MTC from the laundry room computers. That seems like just yesterday and yet it was two years ago! Sounds like you are all keeping busy! Thank you for everything you are doing for me in preparation for my return. I couldn't do it without your help and the Lord's help! I wanted to especially thank you for your prayers on John's behalf. I have a very faithful family and I thank Heavenly Father every day for blessing me with all of you!

John's baptismal service went really well this weekend! Hannah (9) and Pito from the Stuart south area (the zone leader's area) were baptized at the same service as well. (See photos. left to right: Pito, Elders Merrill and Hager (our zone leaders), Hannah, John, Elder Thomas, Elder Miller.) Nothing brings me more happiness than helping my brothers and sisters accept Christ's atonement and the fullness of the gospel through baptism into His church! There were a lot of ward members there to support those being baptized and the talks were done very well. John asked that Elder Thomas baptize him and I confirm him. This was Elder Thomas' first time ever baptizing someone and he did a great job! Especially considering the font plug was leaking and he had to baptize John in water only knee deep! Yet he did it first try! We have a goal to have two more baptisms within the next two weeks and we are working towards that with the Lord's help. Two of the people we have in mind for that are John's daughter Summer and her friend Brittany who have both come to church twice already. Whether it is them Heavenly Father helps us to baptize within the next two weeks or someone else, we are going to work our tails off to help two more of his children be prepared and baptized before my time is through. Please continue to pray for us and those we teach so that we can reach this goal the Lord has helped us set!

This week was a success for Elder Thomas and I even though I was gone for a special leadership training four days out of the week. On Monday night I left to Orlando with the Assistants in their van and on the way up we picked up 5 other missionaries. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday we would arrive at the Weatherbee chapel in Orlando at about 10:00 am for that day's training given by each missionary from the mission leadership. At around 5:00 pm each day we headed out to areas nearby to go on exchanges with the other missionaries in the area to strengthen them and apply the training we had just received. Tuesday night I got to go to Kissimmee! I had dinner with the Moore family and got to see the Nganga family as well (both families that I knew from serving there over a year ago!) I feel that the Leadership training was a success and I have already seen fruits of it in sharing what I learned with my companion. It was basically like an infield mini MTC experience!

Elder Thomas is a great companion and he is striving to be obedient to the mission rules. He has a sincere desire to do the work and he and I have experienced a lot of success together. Although, due to my limited time left, I will only be able to train him for this transfer, I know he will do a great job with his next companion as well. Recently, we read over the training requirements together so that we could remind ourselves of everything that we need to accomplish together. As we did I felt really good that everything we read over we were doing our best on and I know the Lord is helping us to accomplish these things.

There is one experience that I wanted to share with you this week because it was Elder Thomas' first one like it: Yesterday we went on a member exchange in the afternoon to visit a lady who had ordered a free copy of the Bible from mormon.org. The minute we sat down I could tell that this was going to be a crazy experience. She is really nice and even came to church for part of sacrament meeting yesterday, but she definitely has some different views on feeling the Holy Ghost, seeing visions, and speaking in tongues! She is a middle-aged, African-American woman who is a former body builder and is very animated in her communication. She talked for about half the time about how ever since she was three she would have dreams and visions of when people were going to die or when something bad was going to happen and that it would happen even to the very day she had predicted it. She claims to have received the Holy Ghost and she said that when she does that she falls down and runs around shouting among other things. Although she may have felt the Spirit at times she most certainly has not yet received the gift of the Holy Ghost through laying on of hands by those who are in authority and the Holy Ghost is definitely not the one who throws her to the ground or causes her to run around screaming! As Elder Thomas pointed out, luckily she did not try any of this during our sacrament meeting. Thank goodness! Ironically, she did have a lot of beliefs that were in line with the restored gospel such as the importance of prophets, authority from God, the need for chastity, and the Lord's law of health. She informed us that we could come back to share more of our message with her after she finishes her next seven-day fast this week!? I definitely know that if she takes the opportunity to read from the Book of Mormon, pray about it, and receive an answer from God of it's truthfulness that the restored gospel can strengthen her faith in Jesus Christ and help correct all of her incorrect beliefs from her former religions.

Thank you for your support and love, it really means a lot to me. I pray that you have another great week and that you will have the Lord's help in accomplishing all that you need to get done. I love you a lot! Be safe and have a great week!

Love,

Elder Miller

P.S.-

Dad, in answer to your question I feel it would be good for Grandma and Rodney to come for the time you mentioned before my homecoming party but I am happy with either way. It will just be great to see family again!

Mom, I do remember that book you used to read me- I think it was called "There's always room for one more right? Thanks for sending out the invites. I think it would be great if some how you could send one to each ward as well (the Minneola, Kissimmee, Daytona Beach, Viera, and Stuart North wards).

Reece, that's cool that we'll be taking the same English class! I don't know how I feel about the whole online thing but it's worth looking into. I'm just very accustomed to have a professor or teacher at the from of a class room giving the lessons. I hope you are able to sign up for some more classes, too!

Remi, I am glad that you are my brother as well! Thanks for being willing to share a room with me when I get back. I hope you have a lot of fun at your friend's birthday party!

Only two more after this?! July 19, 2010

Hello Family!

Well, today I am just getting around to my email because I was attempting to register for classes. So far I have four classes but I need at least a couple more. Reece, how is your first experience going registering for classes? I find it difficult as a missionary because I haven't used computers this much for two years and I am having to relearn how to navigate the BYU-I site. It sounds like all of you had a good week. I am glad Remi's Scout Camp went well and it sounds like Reece and Dad had fun with the merit badges they helped out with. Mom, Dad, and Reece, I hope work is going well for all of you. Mom, just so you know the letter and list of names should be arriving today or tomorrow at the latest (I put it in the mail Saturday morning). Thank you for answering all of my questions! You're a big help!

I can't believe that after today I only have two more emails that I get to send. Then we will see each other again! It's crazy how time flies, isn't it?

My week was great as usual but the experiences that I had this week really strengthened my testimony of Christ's Atonement - both as applied in my personal life and in the lives those we are teaching. I am grateful for the help the Lord has given me and I know that He lives and loves us very much; more than we can fully comprehend.

We have recently been helping Karolyn and Jonathan prepare to go to the temple for the first time to do baptisms. I am so excited for them! Karolyn has even been trying to get some info from her family on grandparents so she and Jonathan can do the work for them. Her mother was curious to know why she needed the info. and Karolyn explained to her about the temple and baptisms the best she could. When we were over at their home last night her mom called and we helped Karolyn explain to her mother the doctrine behind baptism for the dead from the scriptures (1 Corinthians 15:29, 1 Peter 4, etc). Obviously that's not normally the first thing you teach someone who is not a member of the church, but we also invited her mom to have the missionaries there in Puerto Rico come over to her home to answer her questions and share with her the missionary lessons. I really hope that she takes the opportunity to do so because I know they can help her understand, especially when she feels the spirit!

We are helping John make his final preparations for baptism. He will make a great member of the Church! I will let you know how his baptismal service goes Saturday in my email next week. Please keep John in your prayers so that he can have extra special help as he makes the final preparations for baptism. Thanks for your help. :)

We watched the Reflections of Christ DVD with a part member family this week and it was very moving. If you haven't seen it yet definitely take the opportunity to because it helps one to imagine what the different parts of Christ's earthly life would have been like. We bore testimony to the family and encouraged them the come to Church. They came this Sunday! We look forward to teaching them more in the future.

We recently started a rotating FHE group which so far has been a great success. The Lord blessed us with being able to get this going every Monday as a support and fellowship opportunity for recent converts, less actives, and investigators. It is hosted in a different active members home each week and rotates between 3 or 4 families. This way those who attend get to know many different ward members and they get to learn how Family Home evening could be done in their own homes. Tonight FHE is at the P's again but I will only be able to stay for half an hour because I am getting picked up by Elder Steinman and the other assistant to the president to go to a special 3-day training in Orlando for the mission leaders (zone leaders, district leaders, and trainers). I hope it goes well and that with the little time that I have left hopefully I will be able to apply the training and better the mission because of it.

Elder Thomas is doing great and he says hello as well. He and I are really working hard together and enjoying the time that we have to serve the Lord. Training has gone really well and I can feel the Lord guiding us through the Spirit throughout each day.

I pray that each of you have another great week and that you are enjoying your second summer here in Florida. I love you all very much and will continue to work hard to the finish. Happy Pioneer Day!

Love,

Elder Miller

Hello from PSL! July 12, 2010

Hello Everyone!

Dad, thank you for sharing those flashbacks with me. I laughed at the "hitchhiking lessons." Zone conference went well. I really enjoyed the special musical number I put together for the end. It was an arrangement of Hymn # 335, "Brightly Beams Our Father's Mercy," and four other Elders and I sang. The reason I chose this hymn was because of its great missionary analogy and the sentiment that it had for me since my MTC district and I sang it for our final sacrament meeting before coming here to Florida. I had a difficult last zone conference at the end. It has been hard for me to accept all of these "lasts" but I know it needs to come eventually. I didn't say half the things I wanted to in my testimony (mainly because of time) but I did testify of some important aspects of my mission - using the Atonement personally and helping investigators to use it in their lives, working hard, sacrifice, the joy of helping others experience conversion, etc. I hope the Spirit was able to touch the hearts of the other missionaries at the zone conference as I bore my testimony so they can know the importance of what I said. Elder Thomas says thank you for your comment. I hope work is going well for you! I look forward to seeing you again soon! Love you!

Reece, I wish you the best in teaching Remi's art class. [At Scout Camp] I'm sure you will do a great job! I look forward to seeing in person that big painting you did for the house. Of course, I also look forward to simply seeing our house! I hope work is going steady for you and that you are able to find enjoyment in it as well as have success. I look forward to going to college with you as well. I feel like a freshman, it's been so long. Wait, I am still a freshman! :) [One credit hour shy of sophomore status!] As you prepare for college please take my advice and also prepare for serving a mission. Things like reading from Preach My Gospel, preparing your self spiritually, and going on exchanges with the Elders will help a lot and on your mission you will be grateful for having done those things! Have a great week. I love you Bro.

Remi, I hope you have an awesome week at scout camp! I will be praying for your safety and that you may have a great experience. I hope you are having a fun summer! I love you a lot and look forward to seeing you soon! l love you, Remi!

Mom, I hope everything is going well for you at work and with your calling as young women's president. I will keep Remi in my prayers this week. I really appreciate your help with everything recently. I couldn't do it with out you! I am looking forward to seeing you and all the family. You're right though- it is sad so see these amazing two years come to an end. I will send my list of names ASAP. Sorry it has taken me so long to get around to it. I have been very busy with the work and with training- which is very good! l love you and wish you a great week!

My week was busy and successful! We are very excited to be working with John towards baptism. He is coming right along even in the midst of his trials. He came with us this week to a baptism for a lady named Ria on Saturday and he even brought his daughter Summer and her friend to church with him on Sunday. Plus, they stayed for all three hours this week! The Lord has been blessing this area of His vineyard (the Stuart zone) with many baptisms and we are striving for 23 baptisms this month.

I am sending a funny picture to you of my new dentist, "DR. THOMAS", [Elder Thomas!]and I at Brother R's office when he cleaned my teeth for free. The Picture was Brother R's idea. (Don't worry: no enamel was harmed in the making of this photo.)

Marc and Liz are doing well. Liz expressed to us her desire to change her life and be baptized. It was really good to hear that from her and I hope her son has that same desire as well. We have a lot to work on with them but they are willing to work with us and more importantly the Savior as they repent and prepare for baptism.

I will let you know as we find more people to teach. Please pray for us that we may find more of God's children who are prepared for accepting His message at this time.

Elder Thomas is doing great and he says "hi!" He is a good example to me and is a hard worker. He continues to learn quickly and I can see his progress each day.

I love you all and will continue praying for your health, success, and missionary experiences. I appreciate your prayers in my behalf. Have a great week!

Love,

Elder Miller

Happy Independence Day! July 4, 2010

Hello Dad, Mom, Reece, and Remi!

Thank you for your email! I was really surprised to read about going to California because I had no idea! [Elder Miller gets to speak in his "home" ward in Visalia on August 22!] Hopefully I will still get to spend some time with you before we have to leave for school. [Uh, YES!!!]

This week was very eventful for my new trainee, Elder Bailey Thomas, and I. He is from Montpelier, Idaho and is excited and ready to do the work! (see photo) He has four older brothers who all served missions so he is also prepared! With his second door that we knocked on we were blessed to set two baptismal dates with for July! - Yes, Dad, he is definitely on fire! Their names are Elizabeth and Marc. Saturday we set another date with John for the 24th and he is very committed to this step of baptism in his life. John is the one who I told you is going through a difficult trial in his life, but he wants to be baptized and continue becoming a better person regardless of what happens. Three dates for July and counting!

Elder Engemann is doing well in his second area. We had a great time serving together! Here is a photo of our dinner at Benihanas (one of those Japenese cooked in front of you places) with Karolyn and Jonathan the night before he left (see photo).

In other news this week I have had some trials but they have all been met with comfort and help from the Lord, "to make weak things become strong unto [me]." Let me give you some examples:

>On Saturday I got my first flat tire ever on my mission while biking in the rain to our appointment with John. But the blessing of this was that we called John and he gave us a ride the rest of the evening and we didn't have to bike the rest of the night in the rain. Even more of a blessing was being able to teach him from Alma 7 about how the atonement could specifically apply in his life through baptism and then set his baptismal date of July 24th. I will get to see his baptism!

>On Friday while simply doing the normal push ups and pull-ups that I do I pulled a muscle in my neck which has been very painful. But the Lord still blessed me to be able to keep my commitment to the B. family by helping them move on Saturday. My neck didn't really hurt the whole time we were helping them!

>On Friday night I got pulled over for the first time in my life. It was dark and raining and I had gone straight from a poorly marked right turn lane. The police officer simply said to be careful because he knows we don't want to get into any accidents. It was a blessing that he was kind!

>Before President Darrington had left I got permission from him to call BYU-Idaho and ask them questions I had about class sign ups and scholarships. I was told that I no longer had my original scholarships (they were only two semester scholarships), but that I had been blessed with the Nielsen trust fund, qualified for Pell grant funds, and received a private grant as well. What blessings!

I know the Lord loves and blesses us and helps us through our trials when we serve him.

Our new mission President is really cool. I miss President and Sister Darrinton, but I know that the Halls will do an amazing job as well. President Hall is a former football coach, sports and athletic director for BYU-I, as well as recently the Vice President of BYU-I. This leadership experience will really help him to "rally up the team!"

I can't believe that tomorrow is my last zone conference!? When did that happen? I will be giving my departing testimony tomorrow then. I feel that life is about to happen for me very fast over the next many months. Rather than trying to put on the brakes I will just move forward in faith!

I love you all and I am sure that the success we are experiencing right now has a lot to do with your faith and prayers on our behalf. Thank you for always supporting me. You're the best family an Elder could ever have!

Love,

Elder Miller

Lots of News! June 28, 2010

Dear Family,

Sounds like you had an awesome, successful, busy week! Me, too! I have a lot to tell you. I'll save my biggest news for the end...

I am feeling much better now. I was sick with a cold/flu thing Monday through Thursday. But on Friday we were back out on the bikes in the sun and it felt great! And being sick finally gave me time to install my bike odometer that you gave me for Christmas. It took me a while, huh?! But it's a lot of fun to see how far we went on Saturday, how fast, etc. We traveled 10 miles on Saturday (our appointments were not as far as they usually are) and I reached a max speed on flat ground of 33.2 miles per hour. Not to bad for just getting over a cold!

One of the Brothers that I am close to in the ward here - Brother H., frequently stays with his wife in their cabin at a camp grounds very close to Lakeland. He has offered, if you would like, to come visit them while they are there. His wife is a professional artist and after I told them about Reece enjoying art they offered for her to give you a free painting lesson if you want to come up and visit them. Reece and anyone else as well, if you are interested in meeting with the H's, please call them! It's a great opportunity so if you can go give him a call. :)

Sunday was a great Sabbath day; they always are but there were just a lot of really good things that happened for me! We had our friend John at church whom I told you about last week and we are meeting with him again on Wednesday or Thursday. Our friend Can (short for Candido I found out) was at Church for the first two hours again and even brought his friend, Sarah, along! The talks were very uplifting for me, but even more so for John. The Spirit helped me realize how pertinent they were for him with his situation. I know the Lord reaches out to His children in need through the help of others, especially through testimony! My favorite part about Sacrament, though, was getting to see Jonathan pass the Sacrament for the first time! It brought me so much joy to see him up there with the other priesthood holders bringing the tray around and fulfilling his Priesthood duties. I realized as I pondered on it, that he had just received a remission of his sins and was now showing gratitude by helping others to receive their forgiveness through taking the sacrament. That's the beautiful thing about the gospel- those who have been served turn around and serve others!

Sunday we also had a dinner appointment and lesson with a non-member family (Bill and Lois) who live directly behind the S. family in our ward. They are very close with the S's (they even have a gate that lets them into their back yard!) and we had a great dinner together. We ate grilled chicken, bratwursts, and lots of delicious side dishes. Then we had a lesson on prayer and answered their questions about the church. We are meeting with them again on the Fourth of July. They are an awesome family and I look forward to seeing them progress in the gospel!

I am so glad that you were able to meet President and Sister Darrington and I am glad that your visit went well! I was actually able to hear about your visit from him as I spoke to him on Saturday morning during transfer calls.

Elder Bennett is being transferred to the Leesburg zone in the Belleview area and Elder Fileteo is taking his place. Now the FT. Pierce area will be having a focus on Spanish work since both he and Elder Stolle are assigned as Spanish speaking missionaries. Elder Engemann is being transferred to Hunter's Creek West area (the area right by the mission office) and I will be going with him up to the mission office to pick up my new companion on Wednesday - I am training again!

I am very excited that I get to train again and I look forward to catching the "greenie fire" that my new companion brings. I will let you know next e-mail what his name is, where he's from, etc. Please pray for me that I may have the Lord's guidance to do my best in helping this young missionary develop Christlike attributes and help others to be baptized into the Lord's Church.

I look forward to a great last two days with Elder Engemann. He has been a great companion and I will miss him. But I look forward to training a new Elder my last transfer and I know we will have a hard working, sweaty, awesome, successful six weeks together!

Mom, I hope you have a great time at young women's camp and I pray that the rain will hold off! [It did -- it only rained once when the forecast said t-storms every day!!!] I will send a list in the mail of the families' names and addresses that you wanted. Dad, Karolyn does not have home teachers yet, but she does have a visiting teacher. I hope she gets home teachers soon! I wish you the best in your work and in this upcoming week!

Reece, it sounds like your server job is a lot harder that your last responsibilities there but I know you are doing a great job and I feel you will continue to get better and more comfortable with it. I will keep you in my prayers. :) Remi, I am glad you and the family had a lot of fun at the beach and I hope you continue to enjoy your summer!

I love you all. Have a blessed week!

Love,

Elder Miller

Howdy from the Far East (of Florida)! June 21, 2010

Dear Mom, Dad, Remi, and Reece,

I am so glad to hear that you are all safe and well. Reece, you gave me a little scare with your story but I am so glad that you and everyone else is safe and that there was no serious damage. [Reece (and Remi) hydroplaned while trying to avoid someone who turned suddenly with no signal and ran across a ditch.]

These thunderstorms can be pretty intense! The Lord has blessed me lately to be out of the rain and lightning when we are out on our bikes. He is definitely watching over us! Sometimes during a storm it seems that He clears a path for us in the sky directly above our heads so that we can tract the area we are in. Just one of His many miracles that I witness on a daily basis.

Remi, I will definitely write you back, bud. I'm sorry I haven't written more. Sometimes with our busy schedules (even on P-day) it's hard to make the time to write letters. But today I am sick with a cold so I will have some more time to write letters. I will just have to sterilize the letter and envelope to keep from sending germs your way! I will tell Elder E. that you said "hi!"

Dad, I am really happy that you enjoyed my Father's Day card for you and I appreciate your compliment on my expression of feelings to people. That really means a lot because that is something very important to me, so thank you! I do look forward to talking with you and hearing the things you will share with me as my father about my next steps in life. Mom, it was really nice to hear about Grandpa! I had written a note in my planner to ask you how he was doing so I was very happy to hear the good news. :) How are our other extended family members doing? Thank you for the school info. I talked with President Darrington and he gave me permission to go on BYU-I's website to get class sign up info today. I will also get permission to call a counselor there and ask advice on classes to take, etc. Thank you for your help! I love you all!

This week I had to say goodbye to President and Sister Darrington. That was really hard because they have been so kind and have taught me so much. I told them that I hoped to get together with them the next time they come to Idaho Falls (30minutes from Rexburg) when they go there to visit family. There are a lot of missionaries from this mission going there so that will probably turn into a mission reunion! Here is President Darrington's last email "charge" and my reply to his president's letter to me this week, my last :(

CHARGE
[This is an entry from my personal journal dated February 25, 2007.]
“Yesterday, shortly after noon, our assignment letter arrived FEDEX. [Sister Darrington was in Utah assisting our daughter with a medical situation.] I put a notice on the family website that the assignment letter had arrived, so everyone is quite eager with anticipation.
“Last evening, I went to the temple. It was nice to reflect on matters of eternal significance and to anticipate where we may be assigned. In the Celestial Room, I said a prayer that I would be acceptable wherever we may be assigned. It seems at times like this Satan conjures up feelings of unworthiness and being inadequate that if dwelt upon could circumscribe our effectiveness to perform the work.
“I’m thankful for the opportunity I had at the age of nineteen to serve a mission to the North Central States. It was a high watermark in my life and has been since. I had two mission presidents who were influential in shaping and molding my character and capabilities to do missionary work and to be a productive member of society. I was raised by extremely humble and faithful parents. They guided me and taught me truth. Susan continues to be my mainstay and a tremendous influence in my life. I love her and I’m looking forward to serving the next three years with her.
“When we opened the assignment letter last Sunday evening, Susan could hardly read the first line before she started to cry. Later, when she gained her composure she felt like she had won the Church mission sweepstakes! We are excited about the opportunity which is ahead of us.”

With Great Love, President Darrington
“One Lord, One Faith, 100 Baptisms!”


Dear President Darrington:

I greatly appreciate the service that you and Sister Darrington have rendered to the Florida Orlando mission. I will always consider both of you a part of my family. You have been like a father to me during these past two years of my life and I have learned so much from you on leadership responsibility, serving others, and what it means to have Christlike love. Thank you for the enthusiasm and zeal you have for the work. I will continue to, "Fight the Adversary!" [arm thrust and all] as a full time missionary until my mission is through. After which I will apply the important advice you have shared with the mission contained in your document, "Legacy." You and Sister Darrington have fought the good fight and I know the Lord will be able to say of your service here, "Well done, thou good and faithful servant(s)." May God bless you in your next journey of life.

Love,

Elder Miller

At our last president's interviews this week Elder Bennett and I presented a cake that we had baked for President and Sister Darrington that we called "President's surprise cake. We lit 36 candles on the cake in the shape of the number 100 to represent their 36 months of service and also our mission striving to reach the goal of 100 baptisms. Not only was that a surprise but we had put our own surprise into it of candy bars crunched up in the mix. I will greatly miss them but I know they have served well and that President and Sister Hall will do a great job in this mission as well.

[Elder Miller's family was very blessed to be able to meet President and Sister Darrington before they were released. Wonderful, wonderful people. We feel so blessed to have had them be Ryan's mission "parents" for most of his mission!]

Our friend Con (Anthony) came to church yesterday. He said that he really enjoyed it. He also said that the arrangement I sang with the choir of a special Father's Day song was very beautiful. We will be meeting with him to teach him more of the lessons on Tuesday. Ryan [investigator] still hasn't made it to church yet because of his work but he and Con both came to the baptism of Alex D. by Elder Stolle and Elder Bennett on Saturday. We were there with them and it was a really great experience for all who attended. Alex is 16 and he was recently diagnosed with Leukemia. It is in recession now and I know that it has a lot to do with the prayers and blessings that have been done in his behalf.

I went on a Spanish exchange with one of our zone leaders- Elder Merrill. We had good experiences and talked to a lot of really nice Spanish people. We also drove to Okeechobee through a lightning storm to do a baptismal interview for two sisters who were baptized this weekend as well. Our zone is being blessed with a lot of success and we have been reaching double digits in baptisms for the past couple of months!

Karolyn said that you had contacted her, that's awesome! Thanks for doing that! Jonathan received the Priesthood on Sunday and it was a really special experience for him and his mom.


Well I will write some letters today for you all. I will keep them short and sweet so I can write one to each of you. Most of my experiences and info. is included in my email so I will just write you each a personal note.

I love each of you very much and I hope to hear great things next week as well. Thank you for being the best family ever!

Love,

Elder Miller